bitch = david

-for the years that i have talked about him in my own lil world i have referred to him as bitch. he was my bitch and there were reasons i called him bitch and i called him bitch with the most love i could feel towards someone. but now i will call him by his name... dave.

plain and simple, dave and i have decided to end the relationship. dave, if you are reading this... i apologize if you do not agree with me airing the laundry so to speak but i feel i need to because i am a little exhausted trying to explain this to everyone who is OMG ARE YOU GUYS OKAY and the answer to that is yes individually we are. i refuse to use the term "break up" because to ME that has very negative connotations to it and this whole situation has been nothing close to negative. sad... yes. negative... no. we both understand where we are in life and in life i have never loved an individual as much as i have dave. we have had our ups and downs over 4 and a half years and at this time it is only right to go a different direction to further understand ourselves and love ourselves more that what we have because together we are two strong willed people who need to figure out our directions in life and unfortunately at this time we both agree we can not do this in a joined fashion.

i cry as i type this because i am sad that i can not be the person i wish i could be for him at this point and i am sad that this could not be the fairy tale ending that everyone dreams of... i dunno i am just plain sad but in this weird way i am also excited for dave and i to learn about life outside of eachother. 4 and a half years may seem small in print but when you have gone through what we have you would understand that we do love each other and that has not changed but just a different angle of light has been shed and we need to find ourselves again.

dave i love you and i always will. plain and simple. i have always been about the plain and simple. but with that said i look forward to us being the bestest of friends and understanding eachother in a different light and with that a whole new different level of love.

forever ever ever....