talking electronix

-i am on a liquor hiatus. my insides are doing funny things and i think they are speaking to me you know when your stomach is like i am hungry and makes those rumble sounds well i am getting those but more intense like STOP FUCKING* DRINKING YOU ASSHOLE OR WERE PUTTING YOUR FUCKING* LIVER ON STRIKE YOU SON OF A BITCH!@@#! and just not over all niceness. i know i know lets see how long this lasts but i have made a point of watching intervention but now i am paranoid that someone is going to take me to a hotel for an "interview". ha! im on to you fuckers*...

-so i have been sitting at home. a_lot. watching tv. this is my week:
monday=heroes + project runway
tuesday=fringe
wednesday=so you think you can dance canada
thursday=sytycd results + survivor
friday=sleep
sat+sun=not drink (well at least that is my plan this weekend)
and when i am not watching tv i go here and watch all the performances of sytycd over again. i am in love with arassay and nico. even though they are not partners anymore i want them to fuck* in front of me procreate and name their child after me. and oh how do i love mia... thank you for visiting us mia. <3.
oh tv.
there is this study that some dumb ass university says that people who watch tv are unhappy and that tv does not satisfy in the long haul. are you kidding me. have you seen how involved i am with my tv. and no i am not unhappy i am just fucking* bored and lonely. you go through a fucking* break up of a long term relationship and tell me what you do to keep yourself entertained as you try to figure out a whole bunch of shit on the biggest emotional roller coaster to date. its not unhappy'ness. i am a happy person. but we are allowed our alone time. i am just currently clocking overtime. and 3 hours of day light does not help either. i would be unhappy if i lived in maryland. unless the mayor was mary MURPHY!@#!@ and mia was the treasurer.

-i have finished two new paintings though:

i would title this like letting go or something but then everyone would be like oh its about the break up but it isnt i drew the original prior to so lets cop out and call it "untitled"

see-food

-i got my camera. i like it. its a canon. i figure i have busted two sony cameras three times. i know the math is weird but i did it. so i pledged to the canon that if i break this one then i do not deserve cameras. i give it 2 months. but needless to say i took pictures. and once i found the color settings... i was satisfied. sepia, black/white and nachooo-ral oh my.



-time to get that shit out of the yard m'friends...



-tanya claims nothing is wrong with her hand. ummmmmmm...

-chimmy + mariokart!!@#!@

-my skin hates cold weather and laurens jacket does not help with the redness.


-i am going to go get the laundry from the dryer because i have this fear someone is going to go through my shit and take all my fucking* calvins.

*please note i have been enjoying the overuse of fuck/fucking/fuckyou/fuckers/fuckityfuckfuckfuck.

tiredly failing bob

-so when you go from 4.5 yrs with somebody to being single and only person in the apartment holy shit can we say lonely. we will just say that amount of conversation time with tango and i has spiked like you would not believe. tango is a good listener. i know if were like say 21-22 i would be out there whoring myself to no end but then again that would mean i was in a relationship from the time i was 17 and at that time i was "straight" and the use of quotation marks are obvious and intentional and i would not be in a 4.5 year relationship with a female mind you in surrey i wonder how many confused people there are out there that i graduated with who have kids and are at like a "point of no return" area in life and if that is the case that is okay i will see you at numbers in a few years as you nervously twist your wedding band wishing it were my penis.. but i digress. i am not that young and the only social event i managed to goto i just proceeded to get fucking drunk as bob ross with happy little cloud paintings which had my phone number on them to hand out to "potential suitors" shall we say and i think i gave them all to ladies who i thought would make excellent new BFF's. so paris i know.


and needless to say all i did was what i have done best and that was drink and fell asleep. nice. so no social gatherings for me in the next while. i need to sort out my inner issues that result to outer issues that result in drunk. ill get over it i am sure. oh and i lost my wig and broke my camera. story of my life. but i just purchased a new one online. its is like my first online purchase. well see how this goes. and that is a camera i am meaning not a new wig. i realized after looking at these pictures i could have drawn some eyeliner on and gone as carrot top. ugh. i will perfect bob ross.

other than that my life has consisted of me and me and mariokart wii. i have found a check list of things to unlock by copious amounts of play time and guess what i have been doing all weekend. my newest short term goal is to unlock funky kong. oh ambitions how i have missed you. dave was over yesterday and all i did was play mariokart wii while he was on the computer. sorry for being a bore dave.

-lets see. i am planning a trip at the end of january/beginning of february. it will be for shari's dirty 30 and it will either be mexico or hawaii. we are still weighing the options.

-that is it. i only posted because dave was like POST! and this is about the best i can come up with at this time. kiskis