sleeping in sin with trash

-last saturday was one of the roughest ever ever and ya. i was not originally going to head into surrey to see my cat but had this crazy dream and i am not a crazy dream person and let the dreams dictate my life or anything like that but when you dream of your cat making its way to your apartment to say bye to you and you wake up with streaming tears of sadness you decide quite easily to go see her so i did and then on saturday morning i decided to goto the vet with her and i got to be in the room and gave her her final scratch behind the ear right where she likes and then she just went to sleep. i cried. hard. someone said it is like losing family but i said it is harder. for 18 years this cat did nothing wrong well except scratch me because i was pissing her off but i deserved it right and ya then you decide that it has to goto sleep now but ya. i'm sad and i miss her she was always something i would look forward to when visiting my parents but anywayanyway i did get some pictures of her on saturday morning before vet time but they make me sad looking at so instead i will put a picture of her sleeping in the cat nip plant that she loved.



-this weekend we are heading to amandas place in maple bumfucknowhere and it is this huge land and they call it promises as in promises rehab because we go there to get all messed up and love life and grass and trees and ponds you know. lalohan.

-and THEN on wednesday next week i am going to vegas and i am getting excited mind you our flights lick ass because i did not realize that my PRIZE had some tight ass restrictions so now shari and i are connecting through EDMONTON for 3 hours to get there but whatev its free. i just want to get away and forget everything for a few days. it is long overdue.

-later i will tell the story of the guy in the vet waiting room talking on the vets phone (cause he originally asked to use it to call the police but for some reason was calling them dad and mom) about people in the "country" of surrey are after him and how he his selling COCAINE (he would say it really loud too) to just stay off the street and he is not sleeping with joe's mom and i wanted to rip his face off but in surrey you just do not know you know and so my mom was like jared you should go outside and i was like no and i gave the guy harsh squint eye like FUCK OFF I AM ABOUT TO PUT MY CAT DOWN AND YOU ARE TAINTING THE EMOTION WITH OUT RIGHT ANGER AND I AM NOT HAPPY and then he eventually left after calling his dad a goof for complaining that he is always asking for money and i was like WHAT THE FUCK because the whole time the reception lady was not there so it was just my mom and i who got to witness that and then he comes back and asks where a pay phone was and i was like OUTSIDE YOU SHOULD GO USE IT and he was like really i did not see one and i said ITS THERE AROUND THE CORNER YOU SHOULD GO USE IT and he was like thanks and walked away and i still wanted to suffocate him with a bag of dog food. then my dad came out of the other room after the dogs check up and saw my mom and i and was like WHATS WRONG and we both rolled our eyes. so that was just the story. the end.